Realisation

One thing about me, I just talk what comes into my mind. I don't organize a post so that in the end everything makes sense. I'm not like that. So here it goes, everything that i think is true.

I feel ruptured, intense heartache. The feeling of loneliness surrounds me all the time, even when I'm surrounded by beings. The feeling that I won't be able to live my life right and healthy. My eyes are wide open now after what has happened. A great lesson that I've learnt. The truth about the rule of the world, about the corruption and how corrupted people are. The knowledge and realisation of how people act around me. And until this day, my perception, my preference, my thinking is still the same. Some people might say I'm old fashioned, that things have changed and people have to go with the flow, don't stick to the old ways, instead adapt the new generation's thinking. Sorry but I'm not going to change my mind. I still believe what I believe. Maybe the rules of my life can be bent, but not broken altogether. It's going to be harder now. Since now i realise how different this era is, and the gap between it and how i thought the world will be, is indefinitely huge.

So I thought to myself, can I live in this totally different world?