When it truely ends..

The best thing about this blog is.. that its more like a diary.. no one reads it but me..

One year and one month.. That is how long we were together.. I dont know about her but I still am in love with her.. Everynight I'm hoping for a sign from her.. At least to talk.. But sigh.. I guess she really gave up on me.. Everytime we fight, I'm the one to blame.. I'm the mistake.. I'm the wrong one.. Even when I know I'm right i just gave up fighting and just admit that I'm wrong.. Because i couldn't stand having a fight with her.. All i want to do with her is just to smile, hug and love each other, not hate.. But i guess everyone has their limit, and I guess we both reached ours a couple of nights ago.. I love her, but I don't think I'll ask her to come back to me.. I asked that once and it didn't turn out well.. So I guess it was wrong of me to ask her to come back to my life.. I guess what she felt was true.. She's falling away from me.. Emotionally.. And you just can't force them to climb back up just like that..

I just hope that she knows that I just want her to be happy.. And I don't mean to hurt her.. I've done all I can to do that but it just wasn't enough.. I wish her the best in her life.. She has a bright future with a lucky guy coming to her life.. All the best..

If i could only be that guy..

I love you Amirah.. With all my heart.. ('=